the world is winning

Not only do I feel like someone's stabbed me in the chest, today I ate pizza. far too much of it. And didn't do nearly enough exercise so add fat to the list of my failings for the day.

i want to lose weight, i feel sick all the time, so why is it so hard to eat healthy? Or not eat for that matter?

one step forward, 1000 back

Heartbroken yet again. By the same person. You think I'd learn.

However, on the plus side, it is easier to lose weight without him in my life at all.

I just hate how much it hurts. I feel a physical pain in my chest. Tonight, walking home I kept lookign at the veins in my wrist and I just wanted to bite through them. Everything hurts and I feel like I'm wearing black tinted lenses.

1st day of Work! Also, orienteering

First day of work, first street orienteering. :)

A lot of firsts today, and it was awesome.

While I made some stupid mistakes at work, I also go the hang of a few different things, and generally had fun.

Orienteering was awesome. i got lost, I thought I had to get the controls in order (I didn't) and generally had fun. I forsee a stiff day tomorrow however.

I haven't weighed myself today, so updates on my weight loss (or - heaven forbid - gain) will have to wait.

Things I'm looking forward to are bowling on wednesday night, and hopefully catch up with sarah tomorrow. :)

The battle of the bulge

Well, 3 years late, I'm finally seriously beginning my battle with the scales.

today I ate a milkshake, a juice, a coffee, a chop and about 2 spoonfuls of peas and weighed in at about 70kgs. I plan on going for a run after dinner - but just down to the local playground.

In other exciting news, I have a new job at the national library as tech support. I'm looking forward to this, but very nervous.

I'm also still dealing with the collapse of my long term relationship with Richard Pywell. I think it's a good thing he broke up with me, but it's still a shock to the system - I was expecting a ring not a dumping!

I'm thinking about starting the bodytrim system to help with my weight loss as I'd love to lose all the weight by summernats and enter the miss summernats competition!

Well, I put a couple of things up on my deviantart site. I'm a bit sad that no-one's even bothered to look at them yet, since I didn't think they were that bad.

However, enough whinging. You're not interested, I'm not upset enough to bother complaining anymore and I have more interesting things to talk about.

Well, I think they're more interesting at any rate. If you don't, that's your problem.

Today I re-read Dreamgirl by Mary Simpson. It's got some interesting ideas in it - but be warned, it's a christian book designed for christians. It's not my usual fantasy stuff so if you're looking for a light fantasy read I'd recommend you go for White Tiger by Kylie Chan. A very good fantasy book, although not in the standard fantasy line. Anyway, Dreamgirl is a good book if you're a christian girl looking for some good, future-oriented girl talk. It's format is fantastic - filled with photos and inspiring quotes and stories - and if the exercises at the end of each chapter aren't all as good as 31 Girl, they're still definitely worth a look. Although you'll need a lot more pens and paper and a lot less essential oils than 31 Girl. On the other hand, the detox weekend is definitely worth looking at if you're feeling down. All together, along with 31 Girl, it's definitely a must have for any teenage girls bookshelf.

I've also just finished re-reading Theif of Time by Terry Pratchett. This is one of the Susan books, and worth looking at just for that. However, the abbot, Lui Tze, Lobsang, ronnie, and the rest of the cast give this book the extra zest to make it into one of my favourite Pratchett's, and anyone who reads Pratchett will know this is saying a lot. Full of his usual humour and wit, it's a great read whether you want to read it lightly or look for deeper meanings in it.

In uni news, I still haven't bought all my text books (shame on me) and still need to finish last weeks comp lab. Comp is ... interesting. All my contact hours for the course are compressed into one 3 hour lecture on tuesday afternoons and a lab at 9am on friday mornings. Not ideal learning conditions.

Anyway, better run.

Love you all!

Well, I'm still alive and all is interesting.

I got the google desktop for my computer, and that is a handy little thing. My timetable is neatly stored in the calender and available at a click of a button, as well as popping up reminders at me. I also have a little news pad thing that gives me the headlines from various news things and if I'm interested I click on them.

The only problem is that this little thing prefers to be connected to the internet, although it works otherwise.

I'm looking forward to seeing what else I can do with it, although I am a little bothered by the amount of information google can collect off it.

However, given that I don't really store anything of interest to anyone online - I don't even shop online, mostly I just read webcomics - I'm not too bothered.

Speaking of webcomics, my current favourites are Girl Genius (http://www.girlgeniusonline.com/) and looking for group (http://www.lfgcomic.com/)

Girl Genius started out black and white, but has since moved to a beautifully coloured, amazing piece. Its funny, but isn't just a string of jokes. Set in a fantasy world, its storyline is fairly fast paced, well conceived and flows well. I'm very impressed. Go check it out. It's updated every Monday, Wednesday and Friday and is fairly regular with the updates. Always nice.

Looking for group is an RPG based comic , featuring Richard ("I like killing things") the warlock, and incidentally mayor of a rather nice village by the coast, Cale'Anon, a young elvish adventurer with gender issues who wants to do good, but seems to have fallen in with the wrong crowd, and Benny - a green young female cleric who likes a good fight as well as the next man, and last but certainly not least, her mentor Krunch, who is actually a scholar but looks like a cross between a bear and a bull. The story is that they are after the Sword of Truth (bearing an astonishing resemblance to Terry Goodkind's Sword of Truth) so that a guy stops chasing Benny. Anyway, read it. It's funny, a good read and good art. Well worth a few hours, and unlike Girl Genius, it's only up to page 63 so it shouldn't take too long to read. Updates monday and thursday fairly regularly. Again, I'm very impressed with this comic.

I'm also reading questionable content, megatokyo, sorcery101, Institute of Magic, something positive, ctrl-alt-del, and a few others. They're all worth looking at. Errant story is another one of particular interest to me - it has very nice art although it is black and white. It's also a fantasty piece. Thunderstruck is another one with nice art. Try googling a few of them and see what comes up! Probably worth it.

In other news, who's been looking at the stockmarket recently? I'm not sure whether to cheer or wail. I guess I sort of like that america's going down, but I'm sad that I won't have enough money to even think about what I'd like to invest in during this small downturn. Ah well. Take care all.

Wow I've been neglectful...

Well, a lot's happenned since I last updated. I'm now with a very silly boy called Richard.

Hey, of course he's silly, he's going out with me - but he also has some weird ideas about making sure I don't hurt myself...

Anyway, my birthday has been and gone, so have exams, but I'm having a birthday party for friends today. It should be good fun.

The amount of time i've spent on the whole costing thing - it'd better be!

Anyway, must rush and cook!